clandestine.

Sheit! i need more money now seriously, any idea how to convince our parents how hard it actually really seriously is to live a life with a very limited amount of resources? i mean, at least give me a fixed amount of money through some sort of deal for a month so i can manage my spending. just like a few weeks more, winter is coming. and i afforded to buy a nice zara wool jacket and a gay (Seriously it is) pair of thick pink socks to wear in dorm only, sorry for not uploading the photos, its gross.

SO, for your information, winter will take like a few months. and i swear you don't want to wear the same jacket everyday right. now going back to the problem, it is hard for me to tell my parents how to deal with this because the total spending for this first month is already like $10.000 RMB which includes my stay, food, electricity, water, and other shit. but oh gawd, everyone is spending the same or even more because it is the very first month here. we got hell loads of things to settle and you gotta pay for it. like the internet, some instant noodles we all chinese need to indulge in for breakfast or whenever we're hungry, a dispenser + mineral water gallons we have to pay monthly, coffee/cigarettes/milo, and ETC. BLAH.

it will be nice if your parents can tell you like "Okay Wanda, since you're living in Beijing, the Capital City of China where food prices aren't the same with Guangzhou, i will give u a fix amount of 2.000/2.500/3.000 RMB a month excluding your monthly dormitory bills." i will be like "Thank you, Father O'Lord of heaven, for enlightening my parents.".

So instead of that, my parents always send me a random amount of money every time i asked them i need some money. sometimes they don't even ask you how much do you need, why do you need them for. i know, i know, its not easy for them. they are working their asses off for me, and i know that so well. its just - this is the situation they kinda need to understand. unless they want me to put a tattoo saying "open for business" on my butt. im not gonna do that, no im not gay.

BY THE WAY, i have been eating these cheap fried rice, dumplings, pork this pork that which are all less than 10 YUAN lately to save money. and guess what, i thought it will be a healthy diet for me. turns out it ain't properly called a diet at all. the oil, yuck, seriously it is unhealthy and sometimes i just left the food there and paid the bill. so next time, i know what not to order.

financial crisis T.T

oh btw, why recently these "eksis" thingy all indos have been talking about really bother me? Personally thats dumb. I ain't faking myself to get recognized. Stick with the same shit people,

"don't know - don't care."

but still, don't be afraid to introduce yourself to other. be friendly at least.

JUST DON'T OVERREACT TO IT.